self reflection

I am a creature with multiple complex thoughts. Inside Out's depiction the brain is not nearly as educational as say... Cells at Work. However there is a kind of charm to its structure and I'm ngl, that is exactly how I visualise brain activities (ik ms. Farrah will be so proud). Also, its really fun how the islands of personality can be abbreviated by IP. Like internet protocol address! The writers were definitely yassing and clocking when they came up with that.

Back to the preamble... the farthest I can remember having consciousness was at 6 years old. Don't ask me why, something significant must have happened. At the time there was probably one IP all about existentialism. The next major evolution was 6 years later. There were more additions such as fairy tail, miraculous ladybug, the short film "shelter", microsoft paint, nightcore version of songs, 2000s romcoms, kdrama, ddlc, all very fundamental to my nourishment.

And then one fateful day, specifically the 31st of October 2025, the 5 emotions witnessed the birth of a new, all-encompassing IP. One that, proven through the test of time, will remain standing until my last breath of life. That is, of course, BYLER.

If you're qualified to access this blog, chances are you already have an idea of what byler is and what it isn't. So I will not go indepth about them on here (maybe some other blog post). Point is, they have taken over my life. Everywhere I go, there is byler. Every song is about byler. The pastries that Azzy bakes? Byler. Lyriq posting angel by madonna? Byler. Preston's vinyl records? Byler. Max and fireball? Byler. Daniels? Byler. BYLER BYLER BYLERBYLERHELPIHAVENOTBEENTHINKINGSTTAIGHTFORBYLERBYLEDAYSTHEREISSOMETHINGBIGAIRPORTBYLERBYHISNOTTELLINGUSBYLERBYLERBYLER

Everything is byler. To the point where I lay at night wondering... has the world always been this way? Why are only a select few chosen to fully experience it? Little did I know that another breed of thinkers share the exact same experience. Not exact per se but the intensity is on par with my bylerfication. 

You might already have a few guesses in mind. Perhaps the mha fandom as a whole? You're a fool for even entertaining that. Although I occasionally vibrate at the sight of green and orange, not every mundane thing can be linked back to bakudeku. I mean they can try, and the byler to bakudeku is present... they could never be on the same level. Maybe flat earth believers? Don't. I am all for free-thinking but equating bylervision to the belief that Australia doesn't exist is just absurd.

So which is it? The most intense group of online gooners... gojo simps. I have to admit, I was perplexed. There was a time when gojo was also a primary part of my life. He died only days leading up to my genuine birthday (a blessing or a curse?), constantly showed up in my dreams, and reignited my passion for piano. But it never got to the point where I'd wordvomit anything gojo to just about anyone as I do with byler. Satosugu, however, is a different conversation entirely. 

Recently I was reunited with a friend now transformed into a full-time gojo stan. Gojo is universally beloved so I didn't think much of it. Like yes, he'd probably smell like a mix of sandalwood and sugary pastry, ofc he'd be really doting, and sure what the hell he can be a nerdy conyo bf who's not fond of social media but would make an ig and tiktok account just to get your super niche references. All normal headcanons.

But then she likened gojo to a bussin egg, tomato, and ham croissant with iced latte and I said pause. So we did pause. Fastforward a few minutes later, somehow parliament is gojo... even I was incapable of connecting byler to that. And most alarmingly, she would reference gojo and byler in the same breath for me!! I was aghast. It was like meeting a kindred spirit when I thought a life of loneliness was all that was left for me. The saxophones receded, warmth filled my chest, then travelled to my eyes. The byler IP on zhyland felt tremors so strong the central emotions couldn't identify if it was under threat or on the cusp of a crucial evolution. 

A day removed from the experience, I have come to multiple conclusions. First, I need more byler merch. The levels of insanity has to reflect in my consumption patterns. Byler plushies, byler keychain, byler poster, byler figurines, I WANT THEM ALL. But I draw a hard line at not financially supporting anything ST related. This shouldn't be too hard as byler is literally everything and anything EEAAO tea. 

Second, I must be entertaining to my peers. Watching someone get lost in their passion is a sight I will never go blind for, especially if its yaoi related. And if its not, it always will be anyways so I can never lose. More yaoi for my friends to come.

Third and lastly, byler IP is built on strong foundations. It's an accumulation of all past hyperfixation:

Friends to lovers slowburn? Nalu.

Seemingly one-sided but secretly mutual pining? Mlb love undecogahedron.

Yearning for meta-storytelling? Ddlc.

Gay childhood best friends, narumitsu.

Wow. Byler really is everything and nothing at the same time. The everything bagel of yaoi, infinite possibilities of the yaoiverse.