please sir, may I have some colours

Idk why this is only hitting me now but ohmygoshhhh greyscale is sucking out all my life force. I didn't mind it as much on insta since all I ever do on there anymore is talk to people. Didn't mind it with yt when I put on hour long videos to listen to. But playing mlbb with no colors indicating health bars and enemy presence on the map left me with a throbbing pain in the head.

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Is this the desired effect? Keeping me away from all that is fun and stimulating (or perhaps addicting)... its definitely working. My brother has stopped inviting me to rank games, not that I really care to play mlbb anymore I'm not a dere tsun tsundeere!! But that's one of our bonding activities!!!! Gone are the days when we would troll and trashtalk random strangers in a calculated tactic to win every single round. Now I just sit by the window watching the vibrant outside world while he continues our legacy.

This is my daughter.

Whatever, I'll slowly get him into board games so we both reduce screentime. That reminds me, I need to buy Rummy-O soon. Can't believe I only have one week left of Whiti and I've done virtually *checks notes* nothing by the looks of it. Oh well, there's always that period of time in your life where you just have to rest. Extreme exhaustion and whatnot. ᴖ̈

Onto more dire consequences of monochromacy, lack of byler. Its been DAYS since I've last seen blue and yellow on my screen and I might actually be going through withdrawals. I scroll on twitter and they'd be like, "omg my blue paint mixed with yellow!" and I'll be like ohhh cute that's so symbolic and then the comments are saying "it was on its way to purple but it chose yellow" I'M LIKE WTF THAT IS SO POETIC IF ONLY I COULD VERIFY AND TRULY ENJOY IN A NON-COLOUR-RIDDEN CAPACITY!!!

And the edits. The edits would hit so much harder with colour and I know that because pre-greyscale is still a vivid memory. The fan arts, tomodachi life screen recordings, the smaus where I NEED to identify someone's clothing to verify their presence at a secret party or whatever. All gone. 

You might be thinking, just use your tab or laptop to see colors of stuff you wanna see and I want you to stop right there because 

1. Its so time consuming to go on my tab, search up the creator or the post, scroll through unrelated stuff (if I'm lucky I don't pass through nsfw content on X), and give a like or leave a comment. Instant gratification is the goal, what part of that isn't clear enough.

2. Screentime is screentime. Doesn't matter if its on your phone or not. Whats telling isn't the time you spent away from your phone but with what you do with that time. If I'm just on a tab continuing my old ways then what's the point even.

3. I am committed to this. Though I feel like a better alternative is waiting still. I will see through this until the very end as much as I can. Doing it later or waiting for something to change is a waste of precious time. DO IT NOW OR NEVER IMPROVE.

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